i'm annoyed forever that i can't access porn sites here
lawd the downside of studying in public is that you KNOW PEOPLE fuck off james
lmao i love eavesdropping on tash and fiona
anyway hmmm let's reflect about life shall we.
being at home was fun. i couldn't tell them :(((( but we're all happier for it.
i can't wait to go to america and have fun and and and going to qatar will be fun. i like spending time with my parents now.
so seeing that geoff's birthday is after two big things are due, i rly do want to go to mildura! it'll be fun!
lectures are foine. i'm glad i get to chat to ken fraser on friday. lmao @ hist tho, world at war, I'M BACK IN HIGH SCHOOL
also rpdr mannnnnnnnnnn i am in love with bianca. and courtney ofc. but also april is so beautiful please keep april forever ;_; and ben i really want to see more of ben, and joslyn. and i want to warm up to laganja
okkkkk man. yeah i'm glad nat agrees about fiona's cooking like i'll eat what she cooks but. nothing is that delicious to me lke man sad vegetarians...
also GOD the MH370 story is crazy like holy shit. god all the new details????? the oil rig guy??? hijacking???
WOW LAUNCHPAD WAS SO MUCH FUN!!! I get to drive lots and play and read with ADORABLE CHILDREN!!! Vika was sooOOoOooOoooooooo cute.
also man I wanna do Camp NaNoWriMo next month but idk what to do... Kirasul or Winther.... arghhhghghghgh Winther has a more set plan yet I know what to write re: Kirasul.
also the more I think about it the more I need to do my Honours thesis on Qatar in the GCC WOW WHY AM I NOT DOING IT THIS YEAR. bwahhhh!!
i am so torn about telling mum about the real reason for my counseling like OH GOD. i am so scared and i'm not home for long. but i feel like i need to. just. take her to my room in the day or something and tell her like when i came out.
anyway all of these ir theory essay questions are S E R I O U S L Y THE WORST oh god they all look awful. i'll probs do the one on the state tho THANK GOD IT'S ONLY 2000 WORDS.
- Music:Ninth Parallel - Verloren
WHY DON'T YOU CAAAAALL MY NAME god peter gabriel/genesis brings back hella 2010 memories
omfg i'm so tired.
driving belco really is such a long trip haha but i don't have to like walk ever.
i liked the sayur lodeh that i made even tho it definitely needed the chili and the paste.
i'm glad launchpad was sorted out, prAYING that it will be fun and i won't fuck everything up. PLEASE WORK OUT!!!!!
also suite francaise is SERIOUSLY A GREAT DOCUMENT FOR THIS ASSIGNMENT wow there's so much to explore... I hope I'm approaching it correctly. some of the questions this thing is asking from us seems... so weird... ugh I should go see mr brown or whoever he is.
yay feel better feel betterrrrr (except for dawning realisation that i am a horrible bitch but hey at least i feel motivated)
french convo is nice altho I don't really have much success at meeting new people, just funtimes with Amber yay which I can't object to. it was definitely nicer with more quiet today
yes @ me finding the exact same type of sunnies at sportsgirl. WORTH IT. WORTH EVERYTHING. i love belco westfield.
and rupaaaaaaaaaaaaaaul this episode made me so happy. it felt SO SHORT. i am so so so excited for bianca and courtney and milk and TRINITY this bitch will turn it out. add ben and april, TOP SIX. i will grudgingly give something to gia loll.
omfg why did tash call me at 11:30pm like. bitch never calls me. what. i'm going to worst case scenario.
and i can't handle this second year child wanting advice. huda what. i can't fit advanced into my degree.
i'll get back to her tomorrow with 'idk talk to CASS' (DON'T GO BITCH IT AINT WORTH IT)
also i love that louisa messaged me with jokes from year nine haha. bless <3 absence makes the heart grow fonder.
oh yeah and launchpad is still getting on my tits. i guess i'll rock up best i can...
- Music:Grimm - Electrify (feat. Father Dude)
ugh oh god it's happening. i'm losing motivation and augrhhgghhhh missed a lecture cuz i wanted to sleep in 'till midday. NO. well i feel slightly more motivated now i have makeup and jewellery on. okay.
WELL i feel slightly better after going to the tutorial (and doing nothing) and then also making the cake well!! and everyone enjoying the caaaaake. yayyyyy cookbook.
i'm just so proud of myself haha. cooking is so much fun and it's so relaxing. when i make something people like i just feel so, so happy. i should definitely do more of it, even if uni gets too much.
i definitely feel better. yeah. hopefully i can get my head back on.
- Tags:a falling star fell from your lap, aaaaaaaye, but i love it, froggy enjoyed it! ribbit ribbit!, go hard, gorguss, guuuurl, i keep a bad bitch around, i keep the purp by the pound, i know i've got a big ego, i whip mah hurr, if i fail i'll fall apart, oh i wheel, oh it's like that, tell me boy boy love it it it it it ah!
- Music:Niki & the Dove - DJ, Ease My Mind | Powered by Last.fm
DON'T TOW MY CAR OMFG why my life
also omg help wtf is this ir theory course, what is going ON
at least the lecture looks alright, covering familiar ground. nice...
sigh lovely conversation with hahnsol reminding me that i am a m e s s
idk why i spent this evening consumed by anxiety panic. like. why isn't anything being done.
i'm nervous about the car stuff tomorrow. srsly wtf.
i'm nervous about launchpad bc the instructions are so unclear and i have so little confidence in myself about anything. when i rationalise it i feel better but eugh.
WELL that was easy.
also i didn't realise how bruised my foot was ew ew ew
- Tags:fok fok fok fok fok fok fok fok fok fok, i saw it, it's just another word for an eskimo, it's true i crave you, none shall pass, oh it's like that, oh!, ohhhhh!, ohhhhhh!, oooss, quintius diadorus and justin
- Music:Mat Zo feat. Rachel K Collier - Only For You (Estiva Remix)
success. it's over. no more ARABIC ASSESSMENTS EVER!!!!
idk how well i did. i was too bothered by arm fuck ups and having to be around these heauxs.
hopefully now also i can get insurance DONE and then idk.
so done with crutches, too, thank god. all I have to do this weekend is catch up and wait for suite francaise to arrive.
idk why my nervousness re: launchpad keeps freaking out.
i can't hold back my excitement for rpdr this year it better be so good because i am SO EXCITED FOR COURTNEY. sO EXCITED. none of the queens other than ben and april (and maaaaybe laganja) impressed me in the initial seven, but i am SO KEEN for courtney, bianca, darienne and even trinity lol
ps willam's fucking husband is tripping me out lmao i... never imagined that from willam (but also it's not like i know the dude outside his persona and omg the tumblr post was so qt)
i'm so disturbed by the imprint of the bandaid on my callus pls dont be permanent.
- Tags:arabic hold me, brofist, buh buh, but i love it, feed the dog, fluster and clusterfuck, i laaaaaahve this drink, i'd rather be by my fucking self, insha'allah, islamden, juat, no one wants to hear your mouth, oh i wheel, susan is a queer, that's it, this is the worst
- Music:Ellie Goulding - Under Control | Powered by Last.fm
omg beck fuck off w/ launchpad. leave me alone.
i'm seriously annoyed about that like hours later lmao. go away i don't like you
also i love how kinloch radio seems to be tuned into suicidesheep's channel lmao
lmao ummmmm i looked at the course guide for applied um. "20 minutes presentation followed by a ten minute discussion"
well it's a good thing I don't want to do the shitey internship. surely i'll get a credit for this, right. like tev is just doing 5 minutes so i know i won't be the worst one lmao. and probs ben and mickey too.
and looking more at the course guide idek what the rest of this is. i am POSITIVE i only heard we had to base it on our essay.
I really really don't want to be in this 'oh i hate it so i don't care' when I want to be fantastic and successful this but really it's almost march, we got assigned this on december 1st, I need to get on with this year and my other readings and assignments.
omg i changed my blog title for the first time since first year lmao. it basically reflects my first year interests thoooo RSK FOR LYF.
(uuuurghhh hearing nat and luu having sex just makes me feel ill with loneliness. i feel like i may have fucked something up with missing ladies brunch :((((( i could've met someone. idk why i feel like i'm missing out soooo much with not having sex but sigh i hate being reminded that i'm the ONLY SINGLE ONE)
oh no gas explosion in doha :(((( i rly hope dad's ok
holy fucking shit what a day. next time i am driving. idec i can't fucking walk on these. i'm not putting myself through that again except to go to arabic. i am so fucking wrecked. literally everything except idk my face and thighs hurt.
i canNOT comprehend how sore my arms are christ almighty
at least counseling is good. i do feel confident that i can use these techniques to improve my life.
well the fact that dad is going to be getting that job for sure probs is reaaaaaally fucking terrifying. i really don't want them to leave me. i don't want to be seeing them less than i already am.
i'll really really miss them. idk how often i'll see them, like it's ages away and also when will i have time? will i have to see them in america? fuak :(
at least i won't have to worry about living with my parents for like ever lmao (lmao listening to the howard stern @ bronycon)
i am sooooo fucking scared of telling them what counseling is about like i cannot handle it. like i feel the need to justify the cost but i don't... idk what i'm scared of. confrontation, upsetting them... but i think it's doable. i'm sure they'll understand.
saga is soooooooooo good at least tho omg why must i devour each volume too quickly.
wow yep giving up on memorising arabic. i'll just make sure i can read it fluently. and make many palm cards. oh yes.
also lmao @ james visiting us. what a weird visit. i'm glad my responses to him made fiona laugh.
- Tags:awkward, become become, brofist, buh buh, come on ladies come on ladies, do you pray with your eyes closed, heaps good, hey gurl i rly wanna be wit u, i ain't freakin i ain't fakin this, i have taste, i i i wanna go go go, i'll escape if i try hard enough, illest, muhammeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed, must not sleep, must warn others, oh friends, skank the night away, yeah buddy, yissss, you look so dumb rite now
- Music:Vancouver Sleep Clinic - Collapse
WOW I LOVE SECOND DEGREE BURNS
sobs i want a job, T2 please hire me. I'm writing such beautiful gushing stuff in your application PLEAAAASE HIRE ME. otherwise MACCAS LET'S GO
i can't believe i actually asked katherine to meet lmao well it's always fun nowdays lbr. she cray.
omg yay... i got an interview... at majura park....... sure why not sigh. money.
WOW I LOVE FUCKING DESTROYING MY ANKLE AND THUS MY LIKE. LIFE. praying that it gets better by tomorrow shit shit shittttttttt ugh.
i can't believe i ran into tev after collapsing against the wall like lmao. nice reunion tho, i like tev.
ok so i'm back down to 3 days to memorise my arabic speech sigh great. great study skills. great fuck you to everything :(
anyway um. good to know i can uh do honours of politics? but also maybe i can do honours of ir? well what did he do, say do well in theory. he said that me doing well in afp was good soOOO sick. but yeah do well in theory and i guess did he say hist? idk. hopefully i conjure up some motivation.
- Tags:big poo, fluster and clusterfuck, fok fok fok fok fok fok fok fok fok fok, fuckos, get back on that horse, get it get it, i smell bad, i'd rather be by my fucking self, no regrets, oh god, oh it's like that, that's a load of shi'ite, whoops uni, whoops work
- Music:Adele - Hometown Glory (High Contrast Remix)
HUDA IS PLAYING MIND GAMES WITH ME THE PRESENTATION IS NEXT FRIDAY
HUDA.................................... srs i am done
ok so pms has calmed down and i don't hate living here so much. oh my god my pms is brutal?????
um i am the biggest nerdlord ever. i'm already researching topics for my hist essay due UM MAY when i have other assessments due BEFORE THEN. ogod tho british india's role in wwii or danish and norwegian occupations ahhhdjsksgdffffffffsdahgkjdfkj dies. i gotta think about the document exercise first tho! ahhn...
wellll ir theory was interesting as expected, at least it isn't dry, i just... wish he'd go on less tangents.
omfggGGGGGG WHAT THEY'RE KILLING LUCY?????? welll ok like sure she can go bc she hasn't done shit since she was recast and she isn't a fun bitch like janine.
also justice 4 yuna :'(
what am i doing i refollowed louisa and also want to meet up with katherine, what what.
and hahahahahaah at our conversation with their boyfriends. like it was actually fun. who cares that i'm single i'll date QAF.
fjsdfhsdjksdhgs whenever i watch shows with lesbian couples being domestic like my heart actually aches with how badly i want that as my life. a gorgeous wife to come home to after work with kids and pets and a little house.
- Tags:dream of californication, fastuh fastuh fastuh disastuh, fluster and clusterfuck, go hard, i know i've got a big ego, it's just another word for an eskimo, oh friends, oh i wheel, oh it's like that, oooss, tell me boy boy love it it it it it ah!
- Music:Kristen Bell;Idina Menzel - For The First Time In Forever | Powered by Last.fm
WELL at least i know last night was really really period induced. i wondered if that was it after i calmed down after the shower.
wowwwww it's really cool to see people reblogging and liking the commission of seara like... it's an idea from my head, she brought it to life but my design and everything ahhhhh and people like it.
ok so hmmmmm the presentation is like SIX MINUTES ONLY SO FAR eughhhhh. there's still about 130~ english words to put in once they're proofread tomorrow.
fucking why does random dA slash art come up when i google image in 'ancient persian'
WELL THE BEAST HATH BEEN SLAIN. LONG LIVE ME.
DID this even have an argument god who even cares at this point. idk if i'll get a credit or a d. hopefully a d. if i get a credit i'll be hella put out but. at least it's over.
ok well. presentation roughly timed and it's almost 10 minutes long. if i just... speak slowly...
yayyyy i did a proper lap timing and it's 11:42 well that is an improvement
- Tags:arabic hold me, but i love it, but u cant cook the pounded yam wit dis , fok fok fok fok fok fok fok fok fok fok, get a grip get a life and get over it, get back on that horse, go hard, i laaaaaahve this drink, i saw it, it's true i crave you, no one wants to hear your mouth, point? no, somewhat relevant icon, u can hav mah money
wow ok let's rewrite this
i should PROBABLY not freak the fuck out everytime i go to counselling yes that is good. although that was honestly the most horrible loneliness i have ever felt.
um well the rewriting the essay wasn't SO horrible it was just like, half a paragraph and another 3 sentences that needed to be completely redone. got a page to go, can get a solid start on the presentation aye.
aw shit once again i forgot i had to handwrite this.
and awwwww yeah gonna ring in my birthday with some dmmd YEAHHHHHH 2 DECADES
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAH TWENTY YEARS OLD fuckin bye teenage years
hopin this birthday will be fun ^______________^
okay... defs getting nervous about how much time i have to memorise 500 words of arabic...
it's doable... right... i guess i'll write as much of the presentation now and memorise what i can and then just... add the corrections cuz it won't be THAT HARD.
lawd huda respond to me please.
i started out feeling really low today but i feel better after an evening of silliness. and buying 160 dollars worth of alcohol oh my god i felt powerful.
idk seeing james was weird but now we literally have no reason to see him thank god bye.
i do feel sad that i'm single but i really don't feel bitter. i hope valentine's day isn't weird.
this is the best o week ever. sleeping in. watching the olympics in the evening. shopping. having a fucked up toe. sunburn.
legit tho it's really lovely hahaha
ahhhhhhhh I hope counseling goes well tomorrow and I don't cry. and that i can look up some good flights. and do something w/ arabic. yay.